my college life....

no..this is not going to b an anecdote of how sweet and crazy and hotshot my college life is.....

this is just about a gal...who forgot tat she was about to join a govt medical college....who forgot tat she was about to join a govt medical college,trivandrum,kerala.....and dared to dream....

about this gal who had huge expectations out of her college life....about this gal who was disappointed with what she encountered....

yea...i am talking bout my college life....

alright..i agree...colleges aint like riverdale high...colleges aint like whats being pictured in all the movies...but was i at fault to expect tat it would b a place were u would get some space for yourself?...was it a crime to expect tat u would meet people who would at least be living in the 20th century..let alone 21st??....

maybe...i was at fault...

because on stepping into the adobe of one of the prestigious institutions of kerala...where people would even overcome nervous breakdowns during their repeat coaching classes to secure a seat...i understood tat i was mistaken....it was all hype...and no show....

where are the teachers that this college proudly advocated as being their own??....they are all retired....!!!...yes...academically....our college failed my expectations....barring a couple....all others enter the lecture class...switch on he ohp(over head projectors)...and start reading what they have soo meticulously written..some 50 lines in a single ohp(and these people screw your lives out of u if u write more than 10 lines in an ohp sheet during your seminars)....i developed an eye problem with that....after the first month of trying to copy down the notes....i gave up...and i saw i wasn't the only one.....

i had expected to encounter big egos.....tats quite natural....but how do u explain if your head of department so proudly announces tat "we are doctors and the rest of the world are laymen"....come on...madam!!..aren't we all humans first....how do u expect your character to evolve??.....i don't want to grow up and be like them......

and if truth to be told....i made no real friends at college....i tried...but i failed...miserably...because....once i got to know them...i understood tat most of them don't have a life...they don't even want to....i dont mean to say tat i am a loner..i do hang out with a group of people....but its all just fluke...because i know..if a need arises...none of them will ever be there for me....

and the guys of my class....the biggest chauvinists i have ever encountered...u wanna know somethng...a couple of them even had the nerve to catch up with me n tell me tat my salwar kameez was too figure hugging...and tat i shouldn't have coloured my hair....talk about all the space i am getting...what the f*** is their problem???...i really don't understand...and i never did....nor i think i ever will......

i am just a year old in college...but i think i myself have aged a couple.......hehe.....life screwd me up at college...and wen it did....it did it with style....because it royally screwd me up.....maybe....wen i start our clinics next year...there might be a change in my stand...maybe...i dunno....but if truth to b told....this is the only step tat i have taken in my life..which i m not sure of....i still dunno if i belong here....maybe i do...may b i don't.....tat only...time can tell......