Wednesday, December 31, 2008

welcome 2009

i dont believe in saying goodbyes....i believe in welcoming a year with a great hug....i dont really believe in taking new year resolutions...but this year...i am going to give it a try.....

before that...i need to take a second to thank god almighty for being with me all through the previous year..in all the deep downs and valleys i met..and in the very few successes i tasted..i felt your presence beside me....thank you god!!..this time around i am not going to be a complaint box and tell you what all u didnt give me or how you screwed up my life....i just want to give you a big hug and a say an even bigger thank you..for the being the greatest power that controls my life towards the good......

2008 was filled with surprises...i never knew i had these much tears in me to shed...i never knew i had this much resolve in me to face the atrocious situations that i landed myself in....i never knew that i had this much talent in lounging away my time....i never knew that i would hate my life and love it the next second....i never knew that whatsoever be my self proclamations of being independent..that i am solely dependent..emotionally..monetarily..and mentally on a whole lot of people....i never knew that i would hate a year this much..i never knew that i would have such a great ending to a disastrous year proving that..all's well that ends well....

i never knew....for theres a lot more for me to know and learn....

2008 taught me to be brave...strong...and at the same time..timid.....taught me the biggest lesson that if i dont love something or someone...i can never do justice to watsoever it is.....and that i will get royally screwed up in the end....

today...looking back i am a satisfied person...a happy individual....i have everyone on my side...i passed my exams....i feel gods presence throughout...i am strong...i have learned from my faults....i have shed my inhibitions......

come on 2009.....i am ready for another stint at adventure....i am ready to tackle you....i am ready to prove myself......i am ready to break the rules...i am ready to forgive quickly...ready to love truly and to laugh uncontrollably....and above all never to forget anyone who made me smile...atleast for a nanosecond....welcome 2009!!!!

to everyone around...wishing you a very happy and prosperous new year!!!

new year comes with great expectations....great hopes....new dreams...and new stories to unfold....
but what is a new year without a resolution....

i resolve to be a better human human being in every possible way...to try and bring a smile to atleast a single person around me....to live life to the fullest...never repenting what i do and never regretting about what i missed......i resolve to be me....!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Friday, December 26, 2008

another christmas....

man proposes..God disposes......
i said nopes..no way....God said....yeaa..of course...
i said wow...and God said...yuck!!
i said of course...and God said...think again....!!!

this is the story of my life...and it will be..because by now i know very well that the one up there is a big practical joker...and mostly i m his target.....talk about bullying!!!!...

and this was proved again this year....my so called november which i love soo much...which i celebrate soo much turned out to be an utter disaster.....and the December which i pitied and loathed for giving me loneliness turned out to be quite a sweet month......

this year...i predicted that Christmas would be a sad affair...its supposed to be a time for family...but it was just me and my mom at home...but Santa had other plans for me.....

he was late in showing up...true....but better late than never.....he gave me a gift...in spite of me being a brat and a complaint box...he did give me a gift...it was the best gift ever...

he gave me the gift to make the most out of the time i have with me...even if i am alone or with friends or lost in a crowd...he told me that i should enjoy each and every moment....

enjoy the smiles...the tears...the hugs...the laughs...the taunts....whatever be it....to enjoy...

because maybe one day i will be left to live only with the memories of these....and if dont do that today....i might be left with nothing.....

thank you santa....i almost stopped believing in you...i almost destroyed my christmas spirit.....but u gave it all back..right in time....

so my mom and i had a quiet but beautiful xmas at home eating and drinking and watching movies....celebrating it our way...in our own little way......

and guess what i saw yesterday night when i looked out of my window.....