a new beginning...a new awakening...trusting in god..that was what was going on in my mind when i was all set to start another stint at my college as a "3rd year junior"!!!...elated thought i was that i passed...disappointment too etched my mind thinking i couldnt score well.....a new week just went by...and i didnt realise how fast it had gone..something which is quite new with me after being a college goer....
my first posting was at sat hospital..obstetrics and gyneac...when i started out i didnt know the difference between the two...and now a week since i am glad to say that i kno atleast their difference...its a different experience altogether...diferent in the sense...i could feel my patience being tested and still the smile didnt leave my face...i am slowly losing out my very ancient "afraid and disgusted of crowd" behaviour....i didnt faint in the operation theatre....i could mingle freely with the patients at the OPD...i felt awed by the new born babies...couldnt take my eyes of their naturally pink attire..(GOB u should have seen them).....at the same time felt repulsed at the state of the mothers to be...of the big tummies and bigger appettite....i didnt see any glowing skin...i didnt see them with hoardes of people attending to their whims and fancies....i didnt see their craving for ben and jerrys extra dark chocolate icesream being catered to...(i am not sure if any of them even know what it is...)...i didnt see them fretting over pregnant mummy exercise and reading how to lose weight in the post partum period
but i saw them as women...happy to be fat....happy to give a shelter to their baby...happy to suffer through the anxiety and pain....praying to give birth to a normal healthy baby...worrying about the state of the family they have left behind at home.....all ready to help us students with our history taking....who blinks at us when we ask about the contraceptives they have used(many needed translation).....giggled when asked about the frequency of coitus...apprehensive about us learning by touching their most precious possession-their extra large tummy with a life inside.....
yes...it is indeed life....the most beautiful moment when i felt the kick of a baby while palpating a pregnant woman....he was just 36 weeks and not born yet..but he felt irked by us disturbing him...and i heard his heart beating extra fast(quite normal for a baby)....it was really a beautiful moment...when you feel the life inside...and i guess...the feeling intensifies and becomes even more breath taking when you feel the life inside your own body....i guess i kind of understand why women give birth going through all the pain....
it wasnt just about the wards...the theatres were a different thing....witnessed some PG people messing up with a spinal anaesthesia....mistook a hyeterctomy for a caesarian when a humoungous fibroid of the size of a baby was being taken out....witnessed them screaming with pain and discomfort at the minor theatre....
not just that...for the patients there...there are no madams and students.....there are only doctors...and they see us as one with the stethescope and coats on....and they respect us...and expects a lot from us...sigh!!!
i just pray that i can do something to make these people happy....and hopefully my wish be granted!!!!....
off to another week......
I really liked the 3rd & 4th paras. You have really succeeded in expressing your feeling you have experienced. You havta put different fonts & colors for paras which u feel are very interesting to read. So that it will grab the readers attention.
ReplyDeletethank you saying all these good things about my post..its really a character evolving process that i am going through now..and i really dont know if i managed to express all that i really felt then...i still havent got over it..point noted..will do my level best to make my posts better....
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